Logging Off

Over the past two years there has been a string of events, day by day, that has had my nerves shot, my blood pressure high, and causing me to lose sleep like I have never experienced before. This is all after by daughter was born and she came home from the NICU, however she is not the cause of these things.

The news, the media is a constant attack of shitty news and horrible events that is being shoved in our faces to make us think the world is a dangerous and threatening place. if one looks at the statistics we are safer now than we have ever been, so what gives? Ratings, money, advertising. I’m tired of all of it. I need a break. It is no wonder anti depressants are sold at record numbers these days.

So what do I do? what should all of us do? I left FaceBook two years ago after some dickhead made threats against my micro-preemie daughter, nothing like re-enforcing how shitty people can be, and I haven’t missed it since. I’m still on Instagram and have YouTube channel but I have started to weed out the news channels from my feed and stopped following several channels for the same reason. These days I just don’t want to know.

as the primary caregiver for my daughter during the day I find myself juggling several things at the same time. the last thing I need to have taking up my time is some breaking news that in the end doesn’t effect me. Should I really care what new member of the Trump administration is going to spend the rest of their life in prison? guess what guys, hang out with shitty people and you usually end up in jail. Today it took an Instagram post to tell me we were in a national emergency, whatever the hell that means. my day continued on exactly how it would have any other day.

I don’t want the news, I don’t need the news anymore. what I need is a vacation, one that takes me to a far away land of “I don’t give a f*ck” and I can spend my time care free and not feeling like the world is falling apart when I know damn well it isn’t. is that too much to ask? stop treating me like i’m a f*cking commodity.

So today was a good day. My daughter and I have some laughs. I read her some sesame street books and she didn’t want me to go to work, something she does when a do a good job. I want more of those days. I want to sleep better at night. I don’t want to picture Roger Stone in a prison shower with his Reagan tattoo. I just want my life back. so starting tomorrow i’m shutting off the news. the Washington post made it clear today that I only had one free article left anyway before I had to start paying, which is weird with all the damn adds I have to flip through anyway.

so to close this, the media sucks, the government sucks, people suck, and I just want to be left alone. if all you have to butch about is what pronoun somebody used than you have a great life and shut the f*ck up. when trump presses the nuclear button give me a call. my tax return is the same as it has always been, I have no idea what anybody is talking about anymore. so long CNN and FOX news, you are the opposite sides of the same coin sitting at the bottom of a urinal. I’m still waiting for you to be flushed away.